Parenthood

The word 'Parenthood' evokes an idea in my head that it must be some physical place. Like the word neighborhood.  I'm beginning to glimpse what being a mother is going to mean for the rest of my life. My sweet Lily, the purest soul I know who has blessed my home;  made me contemplate and feel even more indebted to my Heavenly Father , causing me wonder what I could have possible done to deserve her presence in my life and the trusting responsibility to ensure her safety and joy throughout her life, I know now that wherever she physically goes I will be her parent, her guardian and ultimately eternal friend. Parenthood is the location of wherever my child is. I have now embarked on my Lilyhood journey. I'm cherishing every moment, for I know that too quickly my heart is going to break, be overflowing with joy and all the emotions in between as she grows and experiences life's sweetest times and desperate moments.
I also realize that it is not only what I have done in my life this far to be blessed and trusted with her but the trust He has in me for the rest of my lives path.
I don't think I have every written what inspired her name. I have been touched by this song on more than one occasion and have felt the spirit through the lyrics.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=06bXq8zXbNQ&feature=related
 In particular the verse that says, 'consider the sweet tender children who must suffer on this earth, the pains of all of them He carried from the day of His birth.' It is the most beautiful song about the savior. While I was patiently waiting , ok who am I kidding, while I was sulking and swinging between hope and frustration for a child to come into my life, this song wouldn't leave my mind.
I am one of those children spoken of and so is Lily. I wanted to be reminded of the savior and his love every time I said her name and think of all the beauty that she brings to me.
He middle name is Megan. It is Welsh, meaning pearl. One of my favorite jewelry pieces, pure, elegant and white. It also happens to be the name of this woman
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4RvfcGcrGhM
I do not remember ever meeting her, but she was from the ward my parents grew up in and that my grandparents still live in. She is an amazing person. So fun, spunky in touch with heaven and returned there just after the birth of her first daughter. I wanted to be reminded everyday what a pearl Lily is to me and no matter what that day brings that I should be grateful to be present for it.